31 Days to Clean – Having a Martha House the Mary Way is a new e-book that I am really looking forward to reading. It sounds like it will take a different approach than the normal “to-do list”. I have prayerfully been seeking help with my home keeping and I believe God has provided for me yet again!
Six years have passed. I still miss my little boy who made me sicker than any of my other children. I still miss how hard you would kick, and sooner than all of your siblings did. I miss daydreaming about you and your big brother playing together. I think about how your big sis got to meet you in the swing that day. I remember the laughs as you kicked her hand. I loved your sweet face with your cute little nose. I still feel you in my arms. My arms holding you close, not ever wanting to let you go. My sweet little boy….I love you and miss you so. I used to miss you so much, that I would have done just about anything to get you back. But not now. I know now, that you are the lucky one. You are in a place that I can’t wait to go. No worries or strife. No pain or suffering. Peace forevermore. I am so thankful you are there. I am so thankful that you taught me to be more compassionate and kind. Losing you helped me to enjoy what I do have even more. I am forever grateful that God picked me to be your mommy.
1. I loved our little getaway to Alabama. The drive was not that bad and the kids (big & small) really enjoyed the Rocket & Space Museum. Oh yeah, and the Sci-Quest Center.
2. I love this bible study that I am getting involved in. Learning to be my hubby’s help meet, because it was never something that I was taught.
3. I am loving the fact that we are getting excited about the new boxes of books that we are acquiring for the new “school year”.
4. I love my Jesus. I love your Jesus.
5. Hmmm…is it love? One of my daughters brought up the subject of marriage in a recent blog post. I know my girl is serious. She’s felt like this for a long time. I just pray for them both. And if it is God’s will, and they both seek Him first, then I have no doubt it will all work out in the end.
I am sitting here watching my kids goof off while they are supposed to be doing some copywork. I’m also chatting with my oldest daughter via text messages and e-mail. She is training in the desert right now. She’s living in a tent. Levi and Erin think that is so cool. They even built their own tent.
Thank you for my children. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to stay home with them and teach them. Thank you for all the ways that I can communicate with my children who are not here. Watch over my children and keep them safe. In Jesus’ name, Amen
I am packing. Packing away all these new little clothes for my grandbabies to take to GA with them. I have found 3 tiny socks without matches. They have made me bawl like a baby. I know that I won’t pack them because they are unusable without their matching mates. I know that I won’t throw them away because they are a reminder. A sad reminder right at this moment because I am going to miss them so very much. I hope they come back and stay with Nana very soon.
June 10 is yet another unpleasant date that seems to never leave my mind. It’s hard to believe that these last 9 months have passed so quickly. Would the pregnancy have seemed to go by as fast? Pregnancies always seem to drag on and on until you look back after the fact. I wish I was feeling big as a cow and waddling around like a duck. What I would give to be nesting and preparing right now. I know I am blessed. I know it! But that doesn’t fill this hole in my heart.
“Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one another, even as also ye do.” 1 Thessalonians 5:11
“You are a blessing.” Those simple words amazed me a few years ago when my doctor said them to me. After losing Franklin, I was going through intense grief and confusion. I didn’t see anything positive in what had happened. Until those simple, yet powerful words. He never would tell me how I had blessed him, but just knowing that something positive could come out of something so horrific caused me to look at things differently. I made the decision then to try and be a blessing to others who would go through tragedies such as mine. It was my stepping stone to healing and hope.
If you have someone in your life who has blessed you in any way, please don’t hesitate to tell them. It might just change their lives!
I’m going to start back slowly. I think I have family who would love to read and keep up with what is going on in our lives. After the last entry, I haven’t really had anything to say. I suppose I should update all the “strangers” who might happen to read. We lost the baby. One month after I found out I was pregnant I had a miscarriage. It has been hard, but I know that I will see our little one in heaven one day. Dates and milestones are not far from my thoughts……..I would be 6 months now. I am wishing for more, always wishing.
On a more positive note, I saw these guys in concert last night. Lord, give me a revelation!
I just got this happy thought in my head, “I can’t wait to feel this baby move.” And then right behind it, “no, no, don’t get your hopes up”. But as I sit here, I refuse to back down and give up any of this joy I am feeling! I know that I belong to that stinky non-naive’ club where everything that can go wrong runs through our head! I don’t care! If something negative happens, well, I’ll just deal with it then! This happiness and joy is just bubbling up inside of me. This can’t be bad! My mind says, “but what about the statistics against you right now?” I say it’s a MIRACLE that I’m even pregnant at my age, so statistics be damned! I will rejoice in this gift that God has given me yet again!