Nostalgic, maybe?

September 1, 2009 at 10:36 pm (Children, Family, Life, photography) (, , , , , , )

My oldest daughter is joining the Army.  I don’t know what it is, this feeling I have.  Maybe it’s just too complex to put a name on it.  I am excited for her.  The possibilities for her life are endless.  I am anxious for her.  Culture shock is an understatement.  For the next few weeks she is about to lose her identity.  Yet, before it’s over she will have grown and found out who she really is.  I am so proud of her, of what she is trying to accomplish.  She is about to honor and defend that which we hold dear.  I am a little scared for her, physically speaking, I mean,  she’s only 4’11” and not much over 100 lbs.  She is a tough little cookie though.

So, what is this feeling?  Why am I crying?  Are they happy tears?  Sad tears?  It’s not like she just left the nest…she’s been gone for 4 years now.  It’s something else, this feeling, it’s deeper.  Maybe it’s the knowledge I have of what she is going to experience.  The memories that come back, of lying in a bed the night before going to boot camp, wide awake, questioning everything.  The memories of going through induction at MEPS the next day, being poked, prodded and fed noxious food.  Waiting and waiting at the airport for my flight along with all the other recruits who had signed their lives away.  My first flight ever!  Getting on the bus that took us to the base.  My first encounter with a drill instructor that boarded the bus yelling in my face.  The shuffle through uniforms, haircuts, paperwork and more.  The initial shock, mentally and physically, of the first few weeks that gradually turned into camaraderie and teamwork.   The determination I felt to succeed and the drive to be the best.  The pride when I accomplished it all.

I want my daughter to experience all that I did and more.  My short stint in the service exposed me to more than most people see in a lifetime.  I learned some very cool things.  I traveled to far away places.  I met so many wonderful people.    And then, I had a little girl……who is now leaving for the Army.

Rachy, I am so proud of you.  You are a beautiful woman, inside and out.  I know that the next few weeks are going to be crazy.  You are strong!  You are tough!  You will be ok, no matter what!  You just keep plugging and know that I am here praying for you.  I am thinking about you every day!  I am here for you always!!  I love you!!  See you at graduation!!!

Mommy

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Wordfull Wednesday ~ Memorial Day 2009

June 10, 2009 at 12:31 pm (Children, Family, God, Life, photography) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

1At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?

2And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them,

3And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

4Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

5And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

6But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

7Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!

~~Mathew 18:1-7

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Mom’s Day Off!?

April 21, 2009 at 3:29 pm (Children, Home, home school, homeschool, Life) (, , , , , , , )

Mom’s Day Off

written by Eugene Bradley Coco

illustrated by Colette Van Mierlo

read by Levi Stanifer (the story is underlined.)

Levi:  Mom’s Day Off

Our Mom works hard. (Mom, why is she doing all that?)

Me:  Because there’s lots to do to keep a house clean.

Levi:  She cooks. (Oh man!!!!  I wish you could do that!!)

The illustration shows a Mom flipping 4 pancakes at a time!!!  Geez!!

Me:  Yeah buddy, me too.

Levi:  She cleans.

She sews our clothes when they rip. (What does rip mean?)

Me:  It’s like a hole or tear in the cloth.

Levi:  Can you do that?

Me:  I could sew if I had to, but I prefer to let someone else do it.

Levi:  She takes care of us when we’re sick. (What about the girl?  Is she sick?)

The illustration shows a Mom with a little girl in her lap, sitting beside a little boy that is laying in his bed sick.

Me:  I don’t know buddy.  Let’s keep reading and maybe it will tell us.

Levi:  She even helps with our homework. (You don’t give Erin any homework.)

Me:  (trying to remain patient)  Levi….READ!

Levi:  Ok, ok!!  <sigh>

Today, Dad looks tired. <Levi looks up at me grinning>

Me:  You know that says “Mom looks tired”.

Levi:  Yeah, but Dad wrote Dad instead of Mom, see!  <He points out the fact that Dad has indeed marked through Mom and written Dad above it.  Also, the Mom is tired and sitting slumped on the couch.  But, you have to laugh at her manly hairy legs in which Levi’s Dad has added copious amounts of black hair.  Ewwww!>

Me:  Yeah, your Dad looks cute with that skirt on and those hairy legs.

Levi:  <giggles hysterically>

Me:  Keep reading buddy!  We still have math to do.

Levi:  “Take the day off”, we tell her.

First, we start breakfast. (Mom, what did they have for breakfast?)

Me:  Well, it looks like they tried to make eggs.  Keep reading.

Levi:  “Oh, no! Watch the eggs!”  I shout.

Mom helps us clean up.

Next, we straighten up the den. (What’s a den?)

Me:  It’s like a living room with a couch, where families sit.

Levi:  Sally starts to sweep.

There is so much dust. (geez, we don’t ever have that much dust)

<I tap the next sentence hoping he’ll get the hint to keep reading>

Mom helps us clear the dust.

Soon, it’s time for Ginger’s bath. (Is Ginger dirty?  Does she like a bath?)

Me:  Let’s see.  Keep reading.

Levi:  I turn on the water. (Who turns on the water?)

Me:  I think the little boy is telling the story, so he would be the one turning on the water.

Levi:  Sally gets Ginger. ( Why did they name her Ginger?)

Me:  <losing it a little more>  I have NO idea why they named her Ginger!  Now READ!!

Levi:  OK!

The tub is almost full.  “Wait!  The faucet is stuck!” (Why is the faucet stuck?)

Me:  He can’t get it to turn off.

Levi:  Why?  Is it slippery or something?

Me:  <rolling my eyes & breathing deep>  It could be, or it could just be hard to move.

Levi:  Oh NO!  Look at that mess! (<pointing to the water streaming across the floor from the tub, he gets up on his feet and starts bouncing a little with his excitement>  I want to do that!!)

Me:  OH NO YOU DON’T!!  YOU’LL RUIN THE HOUSE!!

Levi:  <giggling>  Well, when I build a house, I’m going to do that!!!

Me:  Ok buddy, you do that in your own house.  Now, please finish reading the book if you want to watch “Martha Speaks”)

Levi:  OH NO!!  I’m missing it!  It’s already starting!!

Me:  Well, then you better hurry up!

Levi:  OK!  OK!

Here comes Mom. (Why is she mad?)

Me:  Because they have made a big mess and she’s not getting much of a day off.

Levi:  No, she’s not.

The laundry is next.

We put the clothes in the machine and add soap. (Where’s the soap?)

Me:  I don’t know Levi.  Read.

Levi:  Sally turns on the washer. (OH NO!  They didn’t close the door!) <leaps of the couch and runs across the floor on all fours, then turns around and jumps back on the couch.  He then proceeds to read the rest of the book like an opera singer, literally!  He hasn’t got a bad voice, either.  haha>

Ooooops!  The door isn’t closed.

“Mom!” we yell.  Mom helps us pick up the clothes.

Being in charge is hard work.  “Why don’t you take the rest of the day off?”  says Mom. (The End!!)

Me:  No buddy, that’s not the end.  Turn the page.

Levi:  Thanks, Mom.

Me:  The End

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25 Random things about me.

January 26, 2009 at 3:26 pm (ADHD, autism, Children, Family, Farm, God, Home, Life) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , )

Whew, this wasn’t that easy to me.  Pretty boring to most, I’m sure.  I actually received this “tag” on Facebook, but thought it would be fun to post on here also.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

  1. I LOVE God!  I love serving Him, trying to be like Him, and talking about Him.  I love being surrounded by people who love Him like I do.
  2. I LOVE my family!  I am so blessed to have a loving husband (more on him later) & 4 wonderful children.
  3. I LOVE being a Nana.  I hate being a long distance Nana though.
  4. I have the most wonderful husband in the world!  He really does spoil me.  His goal in life seems to be to make me happy.  I LOVE him so much!
  5. My husband is the BEST Daddy in the world!  He helps me with the kids so much.  We’re always having FUN!
  6. I love to crochet.  My great Granny Kelly taught me when I was about 7.  My favorite things to make include baby clothes & gifts for other people.
  7. I HATE to do housework.  It’s so useless to me sometimes because by the time I turn around, it needs to be redone.  I like that line on that show “30 something”, it goes sorta like this “I’m sorry I haven’t cleaned up the house for the FIFTH time today!”  Or as one of my friends likes to say “My goal is just to avoid e-coli”.
  8. I love my chickens, ducks, geese & guineas.  I started out with 6 pullets(hens) so that I could have fresh eggs.  Now I am embarrassed to tell you how many I have.  My goal is to add peafowl and sebastopol geese to my flock this year.
  9. I am a HUGE procrastinator!
  10. I had a tubal ligation done in 1994.  I had a tubal anastamosis in 2001.  I have been blessed with four pregnancies post surgery.  Levi & Erin are my “babies” I have with me.
  11. I gave birth to Franklin in September 2004.  He was stillborn.  I think this was the most devastating thing to ever happen to me.
  12. I married my sweetie in a barn loft.  It was in the middle of December (16th) and so cold!  Our guests sat on hay bales wrapped in homemade quilts and blankets.  We had bird seed to throw out, but just as we were leaving it started to snow.  So romantic!
  13. I would love to have more kids.  This doesn’t mean I’m going to, but the desire is still there.
  14. The song “Bring the Rain” by MercyMe really is my song.  Having lost Franklin, having a son diagnosed autistic & ADHD and having a husband with chronic  ITP & polymyositis, I feel like I have become closer to God through the storms in my life.  I now praise Him more for the blessings I do have.
  15. I wish that I had raised my oldest girls right.  By that, I mean I wish I had taught them God’s word, so that no matter what life throws at them, they would have it hidden in their hearts to bring them through.  They are both WONDERFUL daughters and I am so proud of them!  I hope they see my life as a testimony to how great God is and that they should turn to Him for EVERYTHING.
  16. I never thought I would be a minivan Mom, but I LOVE my minivan!
  17. I am very disappointed in how I have let myself go in the past 8 years.  I could give excuses, but the fact is I just have no will power and I’m plain LAZY!
  18. I wish I had more patience with my youngest two.  While I believe I have grown into being more patient, I still have my moments.  I YELL at my kids WAY too much!
  19. I love the beach.  I would love to live near the beach one day.  I think my whole family would love this.
  20. I am so unorganized.  I used to be the opposite!  I used to make a menu for two weeks, make a grocery list (in order of what is in each isle at the store), clip & use coupons & feed a family of four for under $100 for those 2 weeks.
  21. I love to shop.  BY MYSELF!
  22. I spend way too much time on the computer and internet!
  23. I wish I lived closer to my Mom.
  24. I have a new goal to lose weight and take better care of myself.  I would love to meet this goal by the time we have our 25th year high school reunion.
  25. I love people, I hate strife, I love my friends, I dislike people who hurt my children, I always give the benefit of the doubt and second chances.

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Serving more.

January 19, 2009 at 11:41 am (Children, God, Life, photography) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

1 John 3:17-18:

17But whoso hath this world’s good, and seeth his brother have need, and shutteth up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwelleth the love of God in him?

18My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.

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I feel like I need to do more around here.  Not “here”, in my house, although I have been severely slacking in that area also, but that’s another post.  I miss helping out my friends, family & community more.  I need to be an example to my children, so that they see the joy and blessings that come from helping and serving others.

So, I’m going to make a list here every week or two, and try and accomplish all of it.

Here’s my list:

  1. I’m going to a make dinner for a friend and her family from church.  She has had a lot of medical problems that are still ongoing.
  2. I’m going to make dinner for two friends that just had babies this week.
  3. I’m going to crochet some baby clothes.
  • Burial clothes for the little ones that don’t make it.  Here’s another one. And one more.
  • Some outfits for the Mom’s and babes who live here.
  • Preemie clothes for the NICU babies here. I usually deliver once or twice a year.  I’m late!!!  Maybe I can get lots made in time to drop off on our way to GA in March.

I’ll update and post pics of what I accomplish later.

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Update on Bad Week

January 17, 2009 at 9:12 am (ADHD, autism, Children, Family, Life, photography) (, , , , , , , , , , , )

Just wanted to let you know I updated the last post.  It’s a good thing!

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Bad week.

January 16, 2009 at 2:45 pm (ADHD, autism, Children, Family, God, homeschool) (, , , , , , , , , , )

fulldoublerainbowPsalm 56:3:
3What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.

Well, after a great report last week, I’m afraid I can’t give the same for this week.  Levi has really pushed the limits at school.  He ended up in the office twice.  Numerous time-outs.  He “accidentally” kicked or hit two different students during times of hyperactivity.  The most frustrating thing is he is telling his teacher “no” or lying to the teacher.

I am still keeping a journal.  I am still implementing the diet.

I am wondering if God is trying to tell me to just go ahead and withdraw Levi from public school.  I mean, we have plans to homeschool starting in 1st grade, so why not now?

We have decided to give it till Friday.  Any more problems and homeschoolers we will be.

**Update:  I wrote this post on Friday before picking Levi up from school.  When I got him, I found out that he was GREAT all day long.  His teacher said he was calm, he did his work, he wasn’t hyper, & he even layed still at nap.  She said he was a totally different kid.

When we got home, he was the same.  He actually fell asleep in the van on the way.  We went to a skating birthday party, and he had a blast!  He didn’t want to leave and got a little upset, but he wasn’t the only one.

I have to conclude that something he has eaten affected his behavior.  Other than the kool-aid Sunday, I don’t know what it could be.  It’s really hard to know considering he is away from us more than he is around us when he eats.

How else can this be explained?

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Check it out!

August 13, 2008 at 3:22 pm (Children, Family, Life) (, , , , )

I know some people will not like this kind of humor, some may even get offended by it.  I personally think it’s hilarious and hits so many “best parent” things I’ve tried to do.  Oh the pressure to be a best parent!  Read it and try and laugh!

It’s under “Blogs I read.”  Titled “Best Parent Ever (Satire)”~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>>>>>>>>>>>

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